I'm trying the blogger app on my phone while I soak here in epson salt, feeling rather pitiful and wondering if I will ever walk without pain in my leg. I know it could be worse, and I know I just gave a big speech earlier about gratitude, but I want relief... I'm ready to be pain free again.
Then I started mulling over my disaster of a love life, my failed marriage, my poor choices, unrequited love, and wondered if I will be alone for the rest of my life. I am okay alone, but I prefer companionship... It can't be just any creep who takes a shine to me, I like what I like and can't help that.
I know I need to lose weight, but I am not obsessed with thinking I am bad, ugly, unworthy because I am a big girl, not like I used to be. Though I don't understand why it seems that I am always second, or lose out to someone that I perceive myself a better catch than... why not me? What did I do so wrong that I couldn't be "the one"?
Then again, maybe I am better alone after all... that way I have nobody to disappoint except myself.
1. hope the pain gets better. I little while back I had a few weeks of pain in my knee(s) it was on one mainly but walking in a way to compensate for that led to pain in the other I think. However I've now realised that it is a lot lot better than it was and has seemed to just gone away almost without me noticing... odd...
ReplyDelete2. love life - I can't comment I have no advice in that area worth giving!
It is easy to feel sorry for oneself while experiencing pain that seems will never end. It will, give it time and do the exercises, maybe it is time to try a physiotherapist if the chiropractor isn't getting the job done. Once the pain is gone everything will look a lot brighter, trust me, this is the voice of experience. Just not in the love life area, sorry, no good in that department :) I am pretty sure though that you are more than good enough - nothing wrong with high standards.
ReplyDeleteLOL funny how everyone has a lot of experience with both types of pain, but has words of advice and suggestions ONLY for the physical pain… lol
ReplyDeleteEmotional, romantic devastation is a personal journey indeed… one only WE as the sufferer has the MAP for…
Thanks guys xoxo